It's been awhile...,..
In my humble opinion, pain serves a purpose. As I have aged it is more present physically and I am grateful for it. It is a reminder to slow down, to take care of myself, to go inward, connect with my spirit, my source, where I am and will always be eternally invincible.
When you think about it, you have to admit that we think of ourselves as invincible physically when we are young and only when we are much older come to the realization that we are indeed invincible in spirit. Yes, our bodies will die but we chose to come into a physical body for the human experience and still we remain Spirit in our nature, at our core.
Yes, today I am in the fourth day of serious back pain and yet I am still grateful for it. Though I am not afraid of death, having been there clinically a few times, I came to live, really live and I have. The pain reminds me that I am still very much alive in a human body, not six feet under or reduced to ash so it is a positive thing, no matter how hard it is to move or do anything much at all. It is noon here and the only thing I have accomplished today is making my bed and brushing my hair. I realize for many people that is a great accomplishment, to een be able to do that much.
We, as humans, tend to think we have limitations and I have always said if you argue for them then they are yours and you have to live with them. Hope springs eternal and I'd like to believe that I can heal myself in more than a mind over matter way, as in if you don't mind it won't matter, and because I not only believe in miracles, I heavily rely on them, I tell myself that this too shall pass. I know it will.
I also realize that I do have physical limitations that I cannot overcome in physical form and I do have to live with them. I cannot control my height, my weight or the damage to my bones. I am a tiny person and so I just have to be mindful of what I can do physically to best protect myself from further injury or pain or disability. It's not easy when one has been so independent most of their life. But I'm learning.
Oddly enough, I have been in pain for many years and only when it takes my breath away do I get a full sense of what terrible pain we can endure. When you live with pain on a daily basis you get use to it when you know that there is nothing you can do about it because you have tried everything. I am great with my own company but when there are things that I want or need to get done, I find it harder to just be still and relax.
