Though I may smile alot and be joyful, it's been a hard year and a half so I haven't laughed as much as I previously had. I'm not laughing today either but I feel the need to write if only as a cautionary tale. About 10 days ago I was scratching an itch on my left calf, the front of said calf and my skin, being as thin as it is, was torn off. I put neosporin and a bandage on it and went about my business. The next day I took the bandage off to let it dry to scab over. That was the plan anyway but we plan and the universe laughs so that was not what was to be.
Upon removing the bandage I discover that just below the scrape is not just a small hole but a black little hole looking ugly. So I neosporin and bandage it again and hope for the best while watching my foot and leg swell up. That was last Thursday, over a week ago. I check it Friday morning and another big black spot has appeared, looking more like a bruise with no obvious hole. Oh dear. I decide to keep it covered mostly to keep flies off of it since they are everywhere out here. By 3pm my skin feels hot yet I have the chills so I lay down. Where I stayed until 11 the next morning when my little sister called. I told her about it and she insisted that I see a doctor on Monday. Well alrighty then. I'm not going to argue since I feel like I got hit at and missed but shit at and hit and honestly I just wanted to feel better.
Later that afternoon my neighbor stopped by to check on me and said to put a slice of onion on it to draw out the infection. I did and the swelling was down Sunday morning but it looked and felt nasty. By Monday morning I was on the phone early to see the doctor but couldn't get in until Tuesday afternoon. I'm a patient soul and bide my time. Finally I get to see her and it turns out to be a staph infection and the only thing one can do is antibiotics which I tend to be allergic to but she says there's one we can try that doesn't end with an n (as in penicillin, amoxicillin, eurethramyacin, etc) but she wants to make sure I have an EpiPen handy and mine are expired. She said she'd call both prescriptions in to my pharmacy and I go my merry way. Thus began one of the worst medical FUBARs I have experienced since my hysterectomy 30 years ago.....
I called my pharmacy on Wednesday morning to discover that they were not called in (insert frowny face here) and so I call the doctor's office to discover she is out of the office for the day (now I've gone from frowny face to disgusted face) and the nurse says there is nothing in my record about any prescriptions. Grrr, really? They said they will try to contact her to call them in. Needless to say I didn't get them until yesterday morning and the leg not only looks and feels horrible but its draing and still swollen. So far no reaction to the antibiotics which is great but I likely have another week of torture to endure full well knowing that I will forever have dents in my leg after it heals. Seriously hoping that it does heal.
I have taken pictures of it every day to document this horror story but I won't add them and subject others to nightmares or worse. Suffice it to say that I highly recommend you NEVER get a staph infection because it's extremely painful as well as ugly. Oh and dangerous. If it hits your bloodstream it causes blood poisoning yikes!
In other news, I'm happy and getting married but not sure of the date and then moving back to the mainland to Louisiana where my man toy is from. His words not mine but I like it, lol. I just look forward to getting my things out of storage and being in the same space with them and him. And laughing more, a lot more
Saturday, June 20, 2020
Thursday, February 27, 2020
Beliefs
I was having a philosophical discussion early this morning with an online friend and have had a few of these types of discussions with this same person recently and to an observer it would seem as if we don't agree about anything and might wonder how we can be friends. It's simple, really, we think differently and hold different beliefs that are similar. A belief is merely the acceptance of any statement being true. Look it up, I did and that is what it said. If I accept that statement then it would be true for me. And I personally believe that 2 things that seem true can be true at the same time even if they are opposites. I know that I can feel sadness and overwhelming joy at the same time.
I have, since an early age, proclaimed that I am a spiritual being on a human journey because everything is made of energy and we come into the human form to experience everything we desire, desire being a human quality, since we have no need for anything in pure energy form from which we come and later return to after our human body's demise. We come in with everything we need and quickly forget that fact so we're all basically in school, all of us teachers and all of us students at the same time. See how that works? Two seemingly opposite things are true at the same time.
The belief that I struggle with most is randomness. You can either believe that everything is random or that nothing is random. Most of the time I think that nothing is random and that everything is as it is for our highest good. We create it all with our beliefs, with our very thoughts, every bit of it. That's what gives us our outlook on any given thing. It's forgetting our spiritual nature that causes emotions, at least I believe it is for me. Emotions are another human quality.
I was going somewhere with this and my (human) train of thought has jumped the track.
Monday, June 3, 2019
Bonds and beliefs
This was started yesterday morning and finished today:
I have not posted here in quite some time, not that I have not written, just not posted, mostly due to lack of wi-fi, and eventually I will get my other thoughts posted. But this morning this is what is on my mind and heart.......
I have always believed that everything is connected, no surprise here, and that we chose to come into human form from energy, which we are, to have all the different experiences and emotions that humans experience.
I have always believed that it was far better and healthier to "think" with your heart than your mind. I realize that medically speaking that if there is no brain activity that clinically you are "dead", deceased, gone, no more, BUT if there is still a heart beat, who is to say that you are not just having an OBE? As in out of body experience. If there is still a heartbeat, without assistance, there is still your energy within your body.
It is the heart that recognizes the energy of others, that connects with them, that forms bonds that transcend the human body. Your brain, on the other hand, will try to reason what it does not truly understand, will try to talk you into or out of things. The heart KNOWS, it does not have to reason, it just makes the connections with like vibrations.
If you think about the bonds you have with people, animals, places, why do you have them? Kindred spirits? Look up the definition of kindred. Wait, I'll save you the trouble: as a noun it means family, relatives AND as an adjective it means related, allied, connected, similar, alike, parallel. My strongest "bonds" are not particularly with family members, not that I do not love them, not at all, as I surely do, yet my strongest bonds are with people, animals and places I have not known or been around my entire life. Some of them are even with people I have never met in "real life". Which begs the question of "what is real anyway?" Maybe I will address that later but for now I am on bonds, connections and how in awe I am of how we do it.
Yesterday I was at the beach in Kona and I was really missing Magic, my new best friend for life, hers or mine I cannot say, but there I was thinking about her. You have not yet had the pleasure of hearing about her and how our connection began but suffice it to say that I have shared a LOT of her on my personal facebook page. I have not left her for more than a few hours since we moved to the Big Island over 3 weeks ago and I knew that yesterday it would be closer to 12 hours and so there I was, at the beach wondering how she was doing.
I was also missing my Danny and wishing he was here there with me but I knew he was fine where he was. Which got me to thinking about, you guessed it, bonds. I have only had him in my life for 2 1/2 years and yet I am closer to him than just about anyone else that I know. With Magic it is 2 1/2 months and both of them are so dear to my heart. They "get me", love me without condition, never judge me, are kindred spirits, in the adjective sense and occupy the majority of my thoughts, both head and heart.
I maintain that when we instantly connect, it is from the hearts' knowing rather than the brains reasoning. Our thoughts can, many times, be proven incorrect, while it is nearly impossible to prove the heart wrong. But even if our heart leads us places we may not always enjoy, it is after all, part of the experience we came for, and where we are suppose to be at any given moment.
I can look back and see that even in the worst of times, I needed to be there to meet someone I would not have met otherwise, a soul connection. Perhaps you can, too, if you think about it, think about the bonds that are special to you, how you made those connections, where you were, what you were doing, how you got there to make them. Pretty amazing right? YOU chose, with help from your Universal guides, every single thing. Even NOT choosing is, after all, a choice.
I am grateful for my connections, my bonds, every single one of them. Each person is a mirror really and when you look at anyone else, you either want to be more like them or hope that you are NOT like them at all. In any case, we learn from each other, through our interactions, and it shapes us to become what we are and what we will become.
I have managed to get out to connect to wifi on my netbook so will post this while I can and besides my train of thought is off the track, not uncommon for me I know, but having music blaring and kids yelling is a little distracting. I am at the community center where I am staying and the kids are out of school for the summer and playing in the pool nearby.
I do hope to post more often and will be returning to Oahu for 3 weeks in July to house/cat sit so I can post to my hearts' content then and try for more wifi time when I can. Until then,
All my love
I have not posted here in quite some time, not that I have not written, just not posted, mostly due to lack of wi-fi, and eventually I will get my other thoughts posted. But this morning this is what is on my mind and heart.......
I have always believed that everything is connected, no surprise here, and that we chose to come into human form from energy, which we are, to have all the different experiences and emotions that humans experience.
I have always believed that it was far better and healthier to "think" with your heart than your mind. I realize that medically speaking that if there is no brain activity that clinically you are "dead", deceased, gone, no more, BUT if there is still a heart beat, who is to say that you are not just having an OBE? As in out of body experience. If there is still a heartbeat, without assistance, there is still your energy within your body.
It is the heart that recognizes the energy of others, that connects with them, that forms bonds that transcend the human body. Your brain, on the other hand, will try to reason what it does not truly understand, will try to talk you into or out of things. The heart KNOWS, it does not have to reason, it just makes the connections with like vibrations.
If you think about the bonds you have with people, animals, places, why do you have them? Kindred spirits? Look up the definition of kindred. Wait, I'll save you the trouble: as a noun it means family, relatives AND as an adjective it means related, allied, connected, similar, alike, parallel. My strongest "bonds" are not particularly with family members, not that I do not love them, not at all, as I surely do, yet my strongest bonds are with people, animals and places I have not known or been around my entire life. Some of them are even with people I have never met in "real life". Which begs the question of "what is real anyway?" Maybe I will address that later but for now I am on bonds, connections and how in awe I am of how we do it.
Yesterday I was at the beach in Kona and I was really missing Magic, my new best friend for life, hers or mine I cannot say, but there I was thinking about her. You have not yet had the pleasure of hearing about her and how our connection began but suffice it to say that I have shared a LOT of her on my personal facebook page. I have not left her for more than a few hours since we moved to the Big Island over 3 weeks ago and I knew that yesterday it would be closer to 12 hours and so there I was, at the beach wondering how she was doing.
I was also missing my Danny and wishing he was here there with me but I knew he was fine where he was. Which got me to thinking about, you guessed it, bonds. I have only had him in my life for 2 1/2 years and yet I am closer to him than just about anyone else that I know. With Magic it is 2 1/2 months and both of them are so dear to my heart. They "get me", love me without condition, never judge me, are kindred spirits, in the adjective sense and occupy the majority of my thoughts, both head and heart.
I maintain that when we instantly connect, it is from the hearts' knowing rather than the brains reasoning. Our thoughts can, many times, be proven incorrect, while it is nearly impossible to prove the heart wrong. But even if our heart leads us places we may not always enjoy, it is after all, part of the experience we came for, and where we are suppose to be at any given moment.
I can look back and see that even in the worst of times, I needed to be there to meet someone I would not have met otherwise, a soul connection. Perhaps you can, too, if you think about it, think about the bonds that are special to you, how you made those connections, where you were, what you were doing, how you got there to make them. Pretty amazing right? YOU chose, with help from your Universal guides, every single thing. Even NOT choosing is, after all, a choice.
I am grateful for my connections, my bonds, every single one of them. Each person is a mirror really and when you look at anyone else, you either want to be more like them or hope that you are NOT like them at all. In any case, we learn from each other, through our interactions, and it shapes us to become what we are and what we will become.
I have managed to get out to connect to wifi on my netbook so will post this while I can and besides my train of thought is off the track, not uncommon for me I know, but having music blaring and kids yelling is a little distracting. I am at the community center where I am staying and the kids are out of school for the summer and playing in the pool nearby.
I do hope to post more often and will be returning to Oahu for 3 weeks in July to house/cat sit so I can post to my hearts' content then and try for more wifi time when I can. Until then,
All my love
Wednesday, May 1, 2019
I was all set to write a new diatribe, as it were...
Just to let you know that I am coming back to writing here and found that the internet is dicey where I am now so it took forever for the page to load and I found myself ranting and forgot the message I had to share. I find that I have been doing a lot of ranting lately and there is no lack of stupidity to rant about. A big part of my frustration is that I have been unable to blog for far too long. I am a writer, it's what I do best and the lack of doing so is making for a cranky Chrissy.
That said, I am going to be moving to the Big Island at the end of next week and starting a garden and I will write to my heart's content. I know it makes it easier for me to stay centered when I do. For this weekend I will be at a conference, not attending so much as selling my pretties at a booth and I hope that goes very well so I don't have all that weight to lug to the airport the following Saturday. Plus the cash would be much lighter and more useful when I get there.
Of course once I am settled I will have pictures of everything once again😂
Until later, all my love ❤
That said, I am going to be moving to the Big Island at the end of next week and starting a garden and I will write to my heart's content. I know it makes it easier for me to stay centered when I do. For this weekend I will be at a conference, not attending so much as selling my pretties at a booth and I hope that goes very well so I don't have all that weight to lug to the airport the following Saturday. Plus the cash would be much lighter and more useful when I get there.
Of course once I am settled I will have pictures of everything once again😂
Until later, all my love ❤
Sunday, December 9, 2018
The purpose of pain
It's been awhile...,..
In my humble opinion, pain serves a purpose. As I have aged it is more present physically and I am grateful for it. It is a reminder to slow down, to take care of myself, to go inward, connect with my spirit, my source, where I am and will always be eternally invincible.
When you think about it, you have to admit that we think of ourselves as invincible physically when we are young and only when we are much older come to the realization that we are indeed invincible in spirit. Yes, our bodies will die but we chose to come into a physical body for the human experience and still we remain Spirit in our nature, at our core.
Yes, today I am in the fourth day of serious back pain and yet I am still grateful for it. Though I am not afraid of death, having been there clinically a few times, I came to live, really live and I have. The pain reminds me that I am still very much alive in a human body, not six feet under or reduced to ash so it is a positive thing, no matter how hard it is to move or do anything much at all. It is noon here and the only thing I have accomplished today is making my bed and brushing my hair. I realize for many people that is a great accomplishment, to een be able to do that much.
We, as humans, tend to think we have limitations and I have always said if you argue for them then they are yours and you have to live with them. Hope springs eternal and I'd like to believe that I can heal myself in more than a mind over matter way, as in if you don't mind it won't matter, and because I not only believe in miracles, I heavily rely on them, I tell myself that this too shall pass. I know it will.
I also realize that I do have physical limitations that I cannot overcome in physical form and I do have to live with them. I cannot control my height, my weight or the damage to my bones. I am a tiny person and so I just have to be mindful of what I can do physically to best protect myself from further injury or pain or disability. It's not easy when one has been so independent most of their life. But I'm learning.
Oddly enough, I have been in pain for many years and only when it takes my breath away do I get a full sense of what terrible pain we can endure. When you live with pain on a daily basis you get use to it when you know that there is nothing you can do about it because you have tried everything. I am great with my own company but when there are things that I want or need to get done, I find it harder to just be still and relax.
In my humble opinion, pain serves a purpose. As I have aged it is more present physically and I am grateful for it. It is a reminder to slow down, to take care of myself, to go inward, connect with my spirit, my source, where I am and will always be eternally invincible.
When you think about it, you have to admit that we think of ourselves as invincible physically when we are young and only when we are much older come to the realization that we are indeed invincible in spirit. Yes, our bodies will die but we chose to come into a physical body for the human experience and still we remain Spirit in our nature, at our core.
Yes, today I am in the fourth day of serious back pain and yet I am still grateful for it. Though I am not afraid of death, having been there clinically a few times, I came to live, really live and I have. The pain reminds me that I am still very much alive in a human body, not six feet under or reduced to ash so it is a positive thing, no matter how hard it is to move or do anything much at all. It is noon here and the only thing I have accomplished today is making my bed and brushing my hair. I realize for many people that is a great accomplishment, to een be able to do that much.
We, as humans, tend to think we have limitations and I have always said if you argue for them then they are yours and you have to live with them. Hope springs eternal and I'd like to believe that I can heal myself in more than a mind over matter way, as in if you don't mind it won't matter, and because I not only believe in miracles, I heavily rely on them, I tell myself that this too shall pass. I know it will.
I also realize that I do have physical limitations that I cannot overcome in physical form and I do have to live with them. I cannot control my height, my weight or the damage to my bones. I am a tiny person and so I just have to be mindful of what I can do physically to best protect myself from further injury or pain or disability. It's not easy when one has been so independent most of their life. But I'm learning.
Oddly enough, I have been in pain for many years and only when it takes my breath away do I get a full sense of what terrible pain we can endure. When you live with pain on a daily basis you get use to it when you know that there is nothing you can do about it because you have tried everything. I am great with my own company but when there are things that I want or need to get done, I find it harder to just be still and relax.
Monday, October 8, 2018
Pictures that wouldn't load yesterday....
Not much to say today but I did want to see if yesterdays photos would load. Maybe tomorrow I will add story to it or just more pictures, I am not sure at this moment in time. But these were all from yesaterday, mostly the arts on the Rogue I was telling you about. It is hard to see them all well but they were colorful and pretty.
I bought this stunning canvas this weekend and the picture does not do it justice at all but I found it beautiful:
Small squares for the kids:
The tree flipping the bird, in fall color:
Sunday, October 7, 2018
It has been awhile
And I have had no time to just sit and write, to keep you caught up. We have worked 10 hour days M-F and most Saturdays, some Sundays, for so long even my garden misses me. And yes, it is still producing! Even with the cold temps, it just keeps going. Granted, it doesn't look as green and pretty as it did all summer but there are still a boatload of tomatoes on both plants, a few cucumbers and squash as well and I haven't yet checked to see how the potatoes are doing under all those mounds of dirt and straw.
I have taken quite a few pictures since I last shared and given the hour I may well just post them instead of my usually long diatribe. Today started out cold and creepy: and the pictures won't load right now, dang wifi. It was very London like, foggy as all get out, you couldn't see very far and I could see my breath.
It did warm up a bit later as I went off to Home Depot to get one of those hooks that you can take off without doing damage to the wall and some little eye hooks to make a chime, which I never got around to today. I found this amazing painting at Goodwill yesterday for 5 bucks and I just loved it and want to look at her alot so I did hang it in my room when I got home.
Coming back through town I saw they were still doing the "Art on the Rogue" and had a few blocks that were closed as all these artists were on the ground making the most lovely artwork with chalk. I took a lot of pictures there as well and when I am able to post them I will, it was interesting and awe inspiring really.
We have had the past couple of Saturdays off, working the Sundays put us over the limit on the hours they can "make" us work, so I have been over to the coast a couple of times, the last time was last weekend and yesterday I went over the hill in the other direction to seven Feathers casino for the day. I was down about 80 dollars when I hit one jackpot for 238 and another for 73 so I took myself to lunch at the buffet, which was only 5 bucks with my club card and a dining credit I got from the kiosk when I had arrived. Had a wonderful breakfast really as I chose the scrambled eggs, hash browns and sausage links and I even had some chow fat (Chinese) because it looked good. It was.
I played for another hour before leaving, still had my jackpots money on me, and came back, did a little shopping and took the truck in for a transmission flush since they had told me the day before it was bad. I had gone in Friday after work to get an oil change, which they did, but they found all this stuff wrong so I got brake lights, cargo lights, air filter, the oil change with some flush thing they do and an oil treatment added and I was told that it needs about four other things done to it and I said later since the 130 bucks Friday was out of my pocket. But since I had won, I went and spent another 130 for the transmission flush and refill because I don't want to end up stranded as I was a few weeks ago when the battery went dead and I had to get a new one of those. I really had no intention of spending a chunk of money on his truck to use it but I need it to run to use it. And now there is a short in the wiring in the dashboard so only half of it (the vital half granted does work) doesn't work. Great.
I am really not enjoying the cold at all and I am ready to head back to my island. I give myself a month before I tuck tail and run back to warmth and fewer clothes. I am constantly made fun of for all the layers I wear everyday and my big pea coat and I am tired of that, too. They can say they are kidding all they want but when you say I am only kidding the words were already past your brain and out of your mouth and you meant what you said. I think it is ugly to make fun of anybody for any reason and the ignorance is astounding here.
I still enjoy the work mostly and I tune everyone out and just do my solder thing but I still have to listen to the crap every morning when I arrive. I am not really digging the getting up at 3:30 in the dark of morning either. Heck, when we go to first break at 7 it is still not light out. Yes, I enjoyed it being lighter later during the summer but the opposite is not as lovely.
It is nearly 6 so I should wrap this up for tonight since I still have to clean the kitchen and put my dinners away before I get ready for bed. But I will try to get back in tomorrow since Bev is gone for the next week, in Hawaii, so I can relax a bit while she is gone.
I have taken quite a few pictures since I last shared and given the hour I may well just post them instead of my usually long diatribe. Today started out cold and creepy: and the pictures won't load right now, dang wifi. It was very London like, foggy as all get out, you couldn't see very far and I could see my breath.
It did warm up a bit later as I went off to Home Depot to get one of those hooks that you can take off without doing damage to the wall and some little eye hooks to make a chime, which I never got around to today. I found this amazing painting at Goodwill yesterday for 5 bucks and I just loved it and want to look at her alot so I did hang it in my room when I got home.
Coming back through town I saw they were still doing the "Art on the Rogue" and had a few blocks that were closed as all these artists were on the ground making the most lovely artwork with chalk. I took a lot of pictures there as well and when I am able to post them I will, it was interesting and awe inspiring really.
We have had the past couple of Saturdays off, working the Sundays put us over the limit on the hours they can "make" us work, so I have been over to the coast a couple of times, the last time was last weekend and yesterday I went over the hill in the other direction to seven Feathers casino for the day. I was down about 80 dollars when I hit one jackpot for 238 and another for 73 so I took myself to lunch at the buffet, which was only 5 bucks with my club card and a dining credit I got from the kiosk when I had arrived. Had a wonderful breakfast really as I chose the scrambled eggs, hash browns and sausage links and I even had some chow fat (Chinese) because it looked good. It was.
I played for another hour before leaving, still had my jackpots money on me, and came back, did a little shopping and took the truck in for a transmission flush since they had told me the day before it was bad. I had gone in Friday after work to get an oil change, which they did, but they found all this stuff wrong so I got brake lights, cargo lights, air filter, the oil change with some flush thing they do and an oil treatment added and I was told that it needs about four other things done to it and I said later since the 130 bucks Friday was out of my pocket. But since I had won, I went and spent another 130 for the transmission flush and refill because I don't want to end up stranded as I was a few weeks ago when the battery went dead and I had to get a new one of those. I really had no intention of spending a chunk of money on his truck to use it but I need it to run to use it. And now there is a short in the wiring in the dashboard so only half of it (the vital half granted does work) doesn't work. Great.
I am really not enjoying the cold at all and I am ready to head back to my island. I give myself a month before I tuck tail and run back to warmth and fewer clothes. I am constantly made fun of for all the layers I wear everyday and my big pea coat and I am tired of that, too. They can say they are kidding all they want but when you say I am only kidding the words were already past your brain and out of your mouth and you meant what you said. I think it is ugly to make fun of anybody for any reason and the ignorance is astounding here.
I still enjoy the work mostly and I tune everyone out and just do my solder thing but I still have to listen to the crap every morning when I arrive. I am not really digging the getting up at 3:30 in the dark of morning either. Heck, when we go to first break at 7 it is still not light out. Yes, I enjoyed it being lighter later during the summer but the opposite is not as lovely.
It is nearly 6 so I should wrap this up for tonight since I still have to clean the kitchen and put my dinners away before I get ready for bed. But I will try to get back in tomorrow since Bev is gone for the next week, in Hawaii, so I can relax a bit while she is gone.
Monday, September 3, 2018
It has been awhile
And as much as I enjoy writing, I was busy enough that it only mildly irritated me that I could not. No internet. I thought I would be able to when I went up to Washington (State)last weekend for my granddaughters' wedding but the internet at the hotel was as bad as the one at home on a decent wifi day--not good at all. But I enjoyed every minute of my trip anyway, I'm good like that.
Things have gotten better all the way around, work is okay and I got "regular" employee status on Friday, early to my surprise, but my supervisor wanted to make sure I got paid for the holiday today so that was awesome. He has warmed up to me :-) It is hard not to in my humble opinion, some people just take longer than others. Still never a kind compliment from Bev but she did finally open her present last week. She seemed to enjoy most of it in her way. Whatever, I was over it weeks ago. She and Rich went away for the weekend and I was kind of glad about that since I have been fighting some bug for a week and just anted to take it easy and rest. Which I have AND also I went out to play and had a really wonderful day Saturday.
It's gone so fast it is hard to back up and start from where I left off but the past couple of weekends have been so restorative on all levels so today I am feeling pretty good. It didn't hurt that I bought and used my new netti pot last night so I got a really good night sleep. My sinuses have been draining since the smoke cleared (everyone has been saying the same thing, runny nose, sneezing, sore throat) and it might be that we are now able to inhale the pollen that was smoke particles before. Either way it was not pleasant coughing all night from post nasal drip and blowing my nose all day so that it was sore. The netti pot cleared most of it out and I was able to breathe without dripping and with my mouth closed so I wasn't having to drink water all night for the dry mouth.
I drove up lat Thursday (8-23) to attend my granddaughters' wedding and it was a pleasant enough drive up until I hit Portland and wondered if the traffic was always that bad. I made it through just fine but by the time I got to the hotel at 5 I was tired and starving and just wanted a meal and a bath then bed. Which I did. The next morning I was up early as always so I headed to the casino nearby, about a 10 minute drive away and did very well. But then I had to go back to the hotel to get ready for the wedding, it was scheduled for Friday late afternoon (between 4:30 and 5) and I was the first to get there and got to spend a little time with Sis (the granddaughter getting married) and meet the parents and groom, who I enjoyed (them all) very mush. Totally fell in love with the mom, she is so like me and we just had an instant connection. More on Eva later.
From the wedding:
I got to see my other grand kids (Kiyah and Brea) and meet all the great grand babies as well as meeting their aunties from their moms side of the famile. I had heard so much about them over the years and it was nice to finally connect. The wedding was simple and in the backyard of the parents' home and the food was homemade and wonderful. Since the wedding didn't start until 6 after all and after eating and hearing the toasts I was going to head out (I was tired and had a full day planned with the grand kids the next morning) and when I got to the front of the house and started chatting with Eva and hung out there for another hour. Someone brought Luna (Sis and hubby's baby--they were already married but never had a ceremony for the family) out and I held and loved on her for awhile while chatting with Eva. I finally left around 8 so I could get back before dark since I was in new territory and out in the middle of nowhere and I made it back safely and had a hot bath before bed.
Saturday I woke up early, as usual, and figured I could get a little more casino time in since the kids wouldn't be picking me up until 8. So I was at the casino by 5:30 and had another GREAT time there, they were more than kind to me, but it helped that I was just in alignment with what I was wanting and intending. I had set my alarm for 7:30 to head back to the hotel to be ready for the kids and I was, at that time, winning on the houses money but I had to go. By 8:25 there were no kids and no word from any of them so I called Sis and left a message then texted her and waited for a reply. Eva texted and so I called her and we chatted for a bit and with no word from anyone else I decided to take off and play by myself.
So I went shopping, buying 16 new CD's to have tunes on the way home and a few other things that delighted me and having left my phone in the truck never did get the message that finally came. They were wanting to change the time and the younger 2 had cancelled but i turned out that when I didn't get back to Sis, she and her hubby and kids took off to hang with her aunt who said I probably got mad and went home. How stupid is that conclusion? Rather negative I think but then I don't really care what they think of me so I just considered the source. I finally connected on the phone with Sis and said first of all I don't get mad, I just move on and with the bad communication it was just a missed opportunity but I went off to play and not waste the day sitting around waiting to hear something.
Heading back from shopping I called Eva and said I had not heard from the kids and she told me they went to her aunts to use the pool. So I asked if she wanted to go to the casino with me for awhile. And that is what we did. I really enjoy her company and her energy and we had a nice time though neither of us won anything that evening. The object was to have fun so in that we we both won but we didn't take the casino's money home which was okay for me, they had been really generous with me and I was set for awhile and was taking some of it home as it was.
This weekend, since we have a 3 day weekend I decided it was time to do some exploring so I had the intention of going to the coast on Saturday morning and over to Seven Feathers on Sunday and doing some reading and writing today. I accomplished all f it but Friday night, after battling a bug all week I suddenly got the chills and felt light headed. I headed for bed and hoped to feel better Saturday, which I did a bit so I took off for a leisurely drive over to the coast. I had the best day ever, although I did start feeling crappy again around 5 pm and headed home. But while I was over there I meandered through their cute shops and hit he beach and collected some driftwood which I am going to make a chime from, like a bamboo chime but driftwood instead of bamboo. I was walking along the beach and hitting different pieces of wood against each other and enjoyed the sound. I saw so much beauty that day:
Things have gotten better all the way around, work is okay and I got "regular" employee status on Friday, early to my surprise, but my supervisor wanted to make sure I got paid for the holiday today so that was awesome. He has warmed up to me :-) It is hard not to in my humble opinion, some people just take longer than others. Still never a kind compliment from Bev but she did finally open her present last week. She seemed to enjoy most of it in her way. Whatever, I was over it weeks ago. She and Rich went away for the weekend and I was kind of glad about that since I have been fighting some bug for a week and just anted to take it easy and rest. Which I have AND also I went out to play and had a really wonderful day Saturday.
It's gone so fast it is hard to back up and start from where I left off but the past couple of weekends have been so restorative on all levels so today I am feeling pretty good. It didn't hurt that I bought and used my new netti pot last night so I got a really good night sleep. My sinuses have been draining since the smoke cleared (everyone has been saying the same thing, runny nose, sneezing, sore throat) and it might be that we are now able to inhale the pollen that was smoke particles before. Either way it was not pleasant coughing all night from post nasal drip and blowing my nose all day so that it was sore. The netti pot cleared most of it out and I was able to breathe without dripping and with my mouth closed so I wasn't having to drink water all night for the dry mouth.
I drove up lat Thursday (8-23) to attend my granddaughters' wedding and it was a pleasant enough drive up until I hit Portland and wondered if the traffic was always that bad. I made it through just fine but by the time I got to the hotel at 5 I was tired and starving and just wanted a meal and a bath then bed. Which I did. The next morning I was up early as always so I headed to the casino nearby, about a 10 minute drive away and did very well. But then I had to go back to the hotel to get ready for the wedding, it was scheduled for Friday late afternoon (between 4:30 and 5) and I was the first to get there and got to spend a little time with Sis (the granddaughter getting married) and meet the parents and groom, who I enjoyed (them all) very mush. Totally fell in love with the mom, she is so like me and we just had an instant connection. More on Eva later.
From the wedding:
Me and my grandchildren:
I got to see my other grand kids (Kiyah and Brea) and meet all the great grand babies as well as meeting their aunties from their moms side of the famile. I had heard so much about them over the years and it was nice to finally connect. The wedding was simple and in the backyard of the parents' home and the food was homemade and wonderful. Since the wedding didn't start until 6 after all and after eating and hearing the toasts I was going to head out (I was tired and had a full day planned with the grand kids the next morning) and when I got to the front of the house and started chatting with Eva and hung out there for another hour. Someone brought Luna (Sis and hubby's baby--they were already married but never had a ceremony for the family) out and I held and loved on her for awhile while chatting with Eva. I finally left around 8 so I could get back before dark since I was in new territory and out in the middle of nowhere and I made it back safely and had a hot bath before bed.
Saturday I woke up early, as usual, and figured I could get a little more casino time in since the kids wouldn't be picking me up until 8. So I was at the casino by 5:30 and had another GREAT time there, they were more than kind to me, but it helped that I was just in alignment with what I was wanting and intending. I had set my alarm for 7:30 to head back to the hotel to be ready for the kids and I was, at that time, winning on the houses money but I had to go. By 8:25 there were no kids and no word from any of them so I called Sis and left a message then texted her and waited for a reply. Eva texted and so I called her and we chatted for a bit and with no word from anyone else I decided to take off and play by myself.
So I went shopping, buying 16 new CD's to have tunes on the way home and a few other things that delighted me and having left my phone in the truck never did get the message that finally came. They were wanting to change the time and the younger 2 had cancelled but i turned out that when I didn't get back to Sis, she and her hubby and kids took off to hang with her aunt who said I probably got mad and went home. How stupid is that conclusion? Rather negative I think but then I don't really care what they think of me so I just considered the source. I finally connected on the phone with Sis and said first of all I don't get mad, I just move on and with the bad communication it was just a missed opportunity but I went off to play and not waste the day sitting around waiting to hear something.
Heading back from shopping I called Eva and said I had not heard from the kids and she told me they went to her aunts to use the pool. So I asked if she wanted to go to the casino with me for awhile. And that is what we did. I really enjoy her company and her energy and we had a nice time though neither of us won anything that evening. The object was to have fun so in that we we both won but we didn't take the casino's money home which was okay for me, they had been really generous with me and I was set for awhile and was taking some of it home as it was.
This weekend, since we have a 3 day weekend I decided it was time to do some exploring so I had the intention of going to the coast on Saturday morning and over to Seven Feathers on Sunday and doing some reading and writing today. I accomplished all f it but Friday night, after battling a bug all week I suddenly got the chills and felt light headed. I headed for bed and hoped to feel better Saturday, which I did a bit so I took off for a leisurely drive over to the coast. I had the best day ever, although I did start feeling crappy again around 5 pm and headed home. But while I was over there I meandered through their cute shops and hit he beach and collected some driftwood which I am going to make a chime from, like a bamboo chime but driftwood instead of bamboo. I was walking along the beach and hitting different pieces of wood against each other and enjoyed the sound. I saw so much beauty that day:
I stopped to pee and played for a few minutes and won so I continued on my little adventure
A really cool chair outside the casino
Best paint job ever!
Brookings area in Oregon
It just made me smile, making tracks.....
I spent part of today organizing and putting about 400 pictures in an album from the picnic since people are wondering when they will see them. I also cleaned my room and have been catching up on a book I have been reading as well as writing here. It is back to work tomorrow but I am well rested and will likely turn in early tonight to make sure I am healthy as well as rested. I do feel much better today and I am grateful for that, it isn't fun fighting illness when you are use to wellness.
So for now, you are mostly caught up and I am satisfied so until next time, stay blessed, be well and all my love <3
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