Provider of happiness 8-16-2016

I was in the middle of an Abraham Hicks marathon of sorts and this statement grabbed me.    It is so very true and besides no one else is responsible for your happiness but you anyway.   Laying it on someone else is holding them hostage in a way and no one does want that.

We are responsible for choosing our own happiness and it should not depend on anyone or anything outside of you, ever.  You may think something outside of you "makes" you happy but it is merely you choosing to be happy because of it, the main point being you CHOOSE to feel that.  But in reality it has or had nothing to do with that thing outside of you, it happened within you by your choice.

You come into this life to experience all the different emotions of being human but that is not who you are, you are the spirit being that observes it all and are whole and complete always, whether you inhabit a body or not.  But you came for the contrast.  In spirit form you are not attached to anything and you know that everything just is and is as it is meant to be.

But you are the only person who can truly provide your happiness and if you lay that on anyone else then you are indeed holding them hostage since they cannot choose happiness for you.  And in turn it will, being the unkind act that it is, make that person less likely to choose happiness over frustration.

Think about it....if you are the person that knows and chooses your own happiness and someone else wants you to "make" them happy, how happy can you really be about that?  If they want you to "make" them anything it means that they have given up their power and that is a sad thing which will not add a thing to your happiness, only frustration.  Or at least that is my personal feeling.

I will never expect anyone to provide my happiness for me because it is not their position to do so, it is mine, and my choice alone.  As it is for every single person.  And so:

No one wants to be held hostage as the provider of your happiness.

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Sticking your neck out to make progress 8-15-2016

As we must stick ours out to move forward as well.  I have had computer issues the past couple of days and been unable to get in here to blog.  I tried many things to correct the main issue, which was with the mouse not moving the cursor and hoping it was not the mouse dying because I really love my roller ball mouse.  I really do.

Of course this event also coincided with my McAffee program expiring and being some what unprotected, I even tried the control-alt-delete method to shut my computer off whilst I debated the whole situation.  I did manage to get online yesterday for a couple minutes and my mouse worked, for a few minutes ARGGG, nad then not working again.

Weird, I just had this deja' vu thing happen and saw me getting 28,000.00 from I know not where.  Odd amount really but there it is.  I felt the need to write that down when it occurred though.  Okay, back to my story:

So once again I shut my computer down and didn't touch it all day yesterday.  I kind of enjoyed it really as I tend to feel easily overwhelmed at all I think I need to accomplish when I am online.  Not that I really do need to accomplish any of it but I do feel the need to accomplish it and then when I find it a tad boring trying to "keep up" I would just rather not be on it at all.

It may or may not have been the rollerball mouse dying as I switched to a different one, which seems to work fine, AFTER having installed a new antivirus program.  And although it is not nearly as easy or fun to use as the rollerball mouse, it does work sufficiently.

The whole point, really, was that I had to stretch myself to be able to get back on my PC and online and move forward.  While I still have much to accomplish now that I am back on, I am more ready for it having taken a couple days away for the most part.  At least for a little while ;-)  And so:

In order to make progress, the turtle has to stick its neck out.

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Roll with it 8-13-2016

This is me most days.  Take yesterday for example, got up made my cup of coffee and sat down at the computer to catch up with some things and of course my coffee cooled off, as it always does when I am doing things whilst waking up.  This in itself is not an issue as I don't like my coffee steaming hot because who likes to burn their mouth anyway?

So I go to take a sip and something hits my lip and looking into my cup I see a gecko in my coffee.  Well, cappuccino really, or I might not have seen the little dude at all.  And so I go to pour the coffee out to try to let the little dude escape mostly unscathed.  But, big bummer, it is too late as the little dude has already drowned and is deceased.  No more.  Expired. Dead as a doornail.

This bums me more than the fact that there was a gecko in my cappuccino and so I then wonder if it is somehow a bad omen.  I google to find out but lo and behold there is not a single thing on any signs, good or bad, about having a gecko in your coffee.  Although I did learn there is a coffee company by the name of green gecko coffee but that was not helpful in my search.

And so I did what I do, I rolled with it, asked forgiveness for having been a part of that little geckos demise and continued about my day.  Granted, it was a first for me, having a gecko in my coffee, although I have had the B-52's fly into it before (and when I say B-52 I mean a very large wood roach which are common here on the islands and not an actual airplane) and that is freaky enough but I do not feel bad for them because they are just creepy.  But a poor little gecko.

They have tiny little suction cups on their feet which help them to glide along windows and ceilings and I wondered how on earth those little suction cups failed to get back up out of the cup or if it was geckoicide.  I will never know. So sometimes you may find odd things in your coffee, but you just have to:

Roll with it, baby.

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Faith 8-12-2016

This is so very true, especially if you think of mountains as obstacles or blockages.  When you doubt, you certainly create blocks and obstacles in your path because what you believe makes all the difference in the world and if you do not believe in yourself you can never get very far.  Faith, the substance of things hoped for, on the other hand, can and does move them.

While I believe in our own energy within each of us and what can and does happen depending on the frequency or vibration of our thoughts, there is also a universal energy, that contributes as well.  Right now that energy is a bit whacky but not taking it in as your own  will help steer you from its negative effects.

After having been unemployed for the past year and a half, other than making my chimes, I was hired for a position on the 3rd and won't actually start until after the 20th, so I have been feeling somewhat in limbo, oddly.  And since I have never been a morning person, I have to "practice" going to bed earlier and getting up earlier, and have found that being out and about in the morning is easier when hiking the hill coming home earlier in the day in particular.

But then I seem to lose any energy I may have thought I had after getting in, making it harder for me to motivate myself to do the things on my computer that I feel I need to do.  And so I miss days blogging, like the past couple of days, while being out and about and coming home drained.  This is not likely to improve much when I do start work, given the 2 hour commute each way added to 8 hours of work.  This thought does not thrill me in the least.

But it is a positive step in the right direction and the fact that someone is willing to give me a chance to work is a blessing in itself and I do look forward to working with this fine group of folks.  But my little blog here may suffer (or not) and I will only likely have time to post on my days off.  On the other hand, the work and socialization may energize me and I will have more stories to share so maybe not.

And so when I read those words (from the poster) they meant something to me, in that if I keep the faith that I can keep the pace with my blog no matter what happens on work days, energywise, I can do it all.  If I doubt, that then surely I will fail miserably at it, since I will be creating a block or obstacle for myself.  And so this:

With faith you can move mountains, with doubt you can create them

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I feel joy 8-9-2016

That is how it is.  Honestly.  I don't need or require a reason other than the fact that I exist really.  I know that if I were to feel joy because of anything outside of me, be it circumstances or physical things, it could be taken from me in an instant and where would that leave my joy?  No, instead it is just a feeling that at times overwhelms me, for no apparent reason whatsoever.

And I love that.  I love knowing that I can be doing the most mundane thing and extreme joy can and does overtake me for absolutely no reason.  I just go with it, it feels good, and anything that feels that good without cause is from spirit and I recognize it as such.  I ride that joy as long as possible until I get distracted, which happens, and yet I don't let it go entirely.

Even during the times when the least desirable circumstances are taking place in and around my life, I hang on to that feeling, if only the smallest amount of it.  Because no one can take it away from me, only I have the power to let it go and, like the rebel I am, I refuse to let it go.

But, when you think about it, or at least when I think about it, of all the things to never let go of, it is the one thing that we, or I, should never let go of.  Let go of hurts, let go of resentments, let go of bad habits and toxic people and things, but never let go of joy.  Ever.  Everyone wants to be "happy" and yet they seem to not find it because it is NOT "out there" somewhere, it is within us and what we are created to be or we would not have the desire to be so.

Our spirit, our soul, our very essence IS joy and we as humans tend to deny it by looking for it where it is not instead of where it actually is.  Within us.  When you feel anything, be it love, peace, joy, sadness, anger---where does the feeling come from?  Is it something you feel outside of yourself?  See how silly that sounds?  No, it is something you feel from within yourself and every second of your life you choose what you are feeling, whether you are aware of it or not.

It just so happens that my spirit is present much of the time and I feel it in that wonderful sensation of joy.  I do not live there 24/7 because I am still human but when I get quiet and free my mind, there it is again to remind me, that sense, that knowing, that all is well and as it should be and was intended to be because the universe loves me and always conspires in my favor.  And that is why, I suppose, that:

I feel joy for no reason at all.

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'Que será será 8-8-2016

Have you ever had one of those weeks where the pull of electronic devices was nonexistent?  Or is that just me?  Because I am having one of those weeks currently where I lack the desire to even touch any of my devices.  It is a tad hard to do that when you have several pages, including a blog, to attend to, and yet I am just not "feeling it" lately.

I have only once had a truly difficult time not being glued to the internet when I was in the Royal Society and the draw was more than I could stand most days, but prior to and since then, staying away is not impossible for me.  And some days I honestly need the time away from all electronics, period.  

Currently it is not like I have a huge blog audience to talk to or feel compelled to write every day but it was more a personal goal than anything when I started this little page a couple months ago.  I tend to like to journal, mostly, and have for a great deal of my life as it is interesting to look back and see how far I have come, how much I have grown and how much, if any, my writing has improved.

In my teens I would write fascinating letters to my oldest brother, not that I believed they were, given they were just my day to day experiences, but that he said they were and that I should be a writer. I cannot say now how much of it was "teen angst" that I was poking fun of with my cheery disposition even as a teen and how much was the style in which I wrote it.  Like I was painting a picture with words.  OK, yes, I was good, lol, looking back.

But I did not write every single day then and I can say the same now, although I do write much more frequently, even if I miss a day or two here and there.  Sometimes my mind is just a blank canvas, like this week.  And so yes, this is another of my rambling days, which may or may not amuse me some day down the road, but at least I was disciplined enough to sit down and write something so I will give myself a bit of credit for that.

And of course, all of that lead to this:

'Que será será, whatever will be, will be..

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Love is the answer 8-7-2016

I had a train of thought going when I originally chose this poster to display today and then my browser crashed.  And so I had to close everything, run my spotmau program to clean everything out and restart my PC.  This took some time and now that I finally got it up and running, my train of thought jumped the track and I cannot for the life of me recall where I wanted it to go.

I did start the custom chime yesterday, worked on it for hours until my hands could take no more and blisters were starting to form and they (my hands) are still sore today.  And yet I still have 2 bamboo pieces to carve before I can even entertain the idea of staining them and so I thought some computer time was in order for the morning.  Sure, that didn't start off all that well, but I am a trooper and here I am.

I had needed to catch up on my public page ( https://www.facebook.com/Radiating1love/ )  and I did catch up for the most part, which felt good, and yet I feel like I need to do more there, how odd is that?  It isn't like it is growing fast or even as fast as it was for a few months, but I still want it to do well, which requires work.  It is Sunday and oddly I like to have Sundays off from anything that seems like work, I don't know why.  It isn't like I attend church services or consider any other day less sacred than the "sabbath" and I did kind of take a mental break yesterday to some degree.

I can see now that todays post is a rambling type post with no clear direction and although it is not how I normally write I do find it rather fun.  To just put down whatever happens to pass through my thoughts without grabbing onto any of them to run with just one is a bit liberating.  Just to free flow...AAAhhhh, yes!  And perhaps tomorrow will bring me back to whatever my original train of thought was (or later today, after I have already hit publish) and the moment will have passed, but I still believe:

Love is the answer no matter the question or the problem.

I am here just loving you all <3

Stay calm & just be 8-6-2016

Though it is my goal to blog every day, some days I fall short, be it low energy, lack of anything to really say, or just being busy with "real life" day to day things, I do miss the boat on occasion.  Yesterday was one of those days.  By the time I got home, I was just too physically drained to get on the computer to say anything at all.  It happens.

Not that I have an earful (or eyeful) for you today, I am rather feeling like the little rebel I am and not wanting to do any of the things I need to be doing.  It could be the atmospheric patterns as we watch named storm after named storm (currently Harold) coming at us and the desire to hunker down and do nothing is pretty strong at the moment.

Of course it is much easier to share delightful little stories when you are out and about making memories and doing fun things to write about, so that isn't helping much today either as I don't have a desire to go out.  My sleep has been so good lately that I find I want more of it.  Besides the strange dreams of a couple nights ago, it has been the best and deepest sleep I feel I have had in awhile and I didn't even realize I was not sleeping well to begin with.  Weird how that works...

Yes, meditation gives me that same peaceful feel that I desire more of, too, but it does sometimes require a tad more effort to stop the chatter that goes on in the brain and sleep doesn't require that effort.  They are calling for flooding and thunderstorms again tomorrow, which would be the perfect day to sleep really, but it won't likely hit until later in the day, long after I have gotten up and around already.

And what I really need to be doing (like tending to my public page on Facebook but don't feel it with all its glitches) is making a set of chimes for a custom order I have to make.  And shall do shortly.  But for the moment, I will just:

Stay calm and just be.

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Life's a beach 8-4-2016

Aww, yes, life's a beach, ever changing, moving and at the heart of it is serenity, a peace and calm.  Don't you feel that at the beach?  I know I certainly do.  And yesterday, amid the flurry of all my activity, I did not get a blog post done.  Or anything else online.   I was out and about in the world, amidst the "beautiful chaos" that is life and I had a wonderful day.

I felt like I really shined and my energy was purely me, all me, without any of the concerns of day to day life that I am facing.  And indeed I did shine and the universe responded with answering a prayer, perhaps not in the way I would have preferred, but an amazing answer all the same.  As it intended and for my highest good.  I do not know where it will lead me, and that is fine, because it can only be good, my highest good.

I notice that when I go to my favorite beach, each time the shoreline is different and always changing, as it should in flowing with what the universe intends for it.  And yet I feel the most relaxed and in harmony with it and every experience there is wonderful.  I do not love it less because it is different, I still see its intrinsic beauty and feel its power, its vibration.

And that is how I approach life in general, seeing the beauty everywhere, no matter how much it may change or evolve.  I will be late posting tomorrow as I will be out and about once again, in joy and harmony and have more to share once I get home.  In the kindtime, this was my thought for today:

Life's a beach.

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Another sign... 8-2-2016

So I was talking to the Archangels last night when I went to bed, as I do, and to Archangel Raziel in particular as Raziel is the archangel that helps with intuition and third eye opening, because I was feeling way off when I thought I was not.  Maybe part of my issue is that no matter what I see or feel, my positive thoughts and vibes only see really good things and many times I am way off on reading the signs and signals the universe gives to me in the physical world.

And I put it out there what I would really like to see and saying that I know that the universe already knows my needs and desires but to please show me the way as I have felt somewhat adrift in how and where it wants me to proceed.  And I wake up this morning, make myself my morning cup of coffee, sit down, gaze out the window and I saw this (view in the poster).

At first I just stared in awe, it was such a beautiful sight and I was not thinking anything at all, merely enjoying it, when it struck me that it was, indeed, a sign, an answer, that Archangel Raziel had heard me and given me that in reply.  I can think of no other way to see that as anything but a positive sign, answer, response, from the universe, no matter how I hard I try.  I may not fully understand what it means exactly but I do know that the universe is in control and I can trust that it is looking out for me and for my highest good.

It is easy, as a human, to get distracted when things are not going as well as we would like them to go, but in the end, we get what the grand design intends for us to get so that we can be the best version of our true selves.  The rainbow is yet another energy, a part of the same energy we are all made of, and I do not know anyone who cannot appreciate a rainbow.  And knowing that we are of the same energy source, how can we not then appreciate all that is?  Even ourselves and each oher.

No, I am not sure what it is a sign of for me today, but I know it is good AND it is:

Just another sign...

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