I was thinking about this when I had a conversation with a friend
who used the phrase "Settling back into normal" and I seriously gave
the thought some long consideration. Being someone who has never been
quite "normal" by society's standards, I couldn't get my head around
it at first. Sure, I have what is my own "normal", a loving, consistent
pattern of being, someone who can be counted on, because I have integrity, I do
what I say I will do, but I am kind of a nonconformist when it comes to doing
what society expects of me.
For instance, unless I
really love doing something, in this case a "job", I will stay with
it, otherwise my track record is 2 years at anything else. I give it a
try, but when it becomes monotonous, I am over it and done. It doesn't
look very great on a resume. But I need to constantly be learning
something new, it has always been so. When I was younger I thought it
would be nice to be a professional student, always attending college, learning
and getting paid for it. That is not the real world, sadly.
I am part child, part
scientist, part engineer, I need to be stimulated or life just seems stagnant.
But I am not now, nor have I ever been "normal", nor do I ever want
to be. Most people live in their "comfort zone" and for me that
is the most uncomfortable place to be. It's a big world and I want to
explore all of it, know it, at least a little bit, try new things, experiences.
I am the kind of person who would jump out of a perfectly good airplane
for the experience of sky diving.
Life is meant to be
relished, savored, explored and enjoyed. How can one possibly do that if
they "settle into normal"? Or perhaps each person has their own
normal. Try looking normal up in the dictionary. I would rather be
anything BUT normal.
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